ye olde crapfest

hi everybody. we made it back from rhody, in one piece and everything. i've got a truckload of work to do, so i apologize to folks who've sent emails and to those who wish to chat, as i'll probably be pretty fucking busy over the next few days catching up.

that and i'm still ridiculously sad about my boo. i miss him a lot, and though i had a couple of days out of town to get used to the idea of him being gone, things got really hard when we got back to the house. it's like i still expect him to come running up to see me. it's hard doing any of the cat related stuff...i cried this morning while i was changing the litter cuz i was throwing away the last monstrous steve poops i'll ever see. molly's little colon just doesn't have what it takes to produce things of that size. speaking of molly, i almost think i ought to rename her because she's like a totally different cat. she knows he's gone and i'm pretty sure she misses him too. she hasn't left my side for a minute since we got home.

steve was my first animal. my first baby. my bestest four-legged buddy. i probably loved him more than i love myself.

so yeah, i'm bummed. and of course, all of this has to happen during that one week of the month in which i'm already quite prone to crying for no good reason whatsoever. that's my luck.

i'm sad. blogging feels dumb to me.

bye steed. i miss you like crazy.



ps thanks to all of my friends who helped out with the feeding and stuff this week. sorry your duties also had to involve all of the other junk. i really appreciate everything you guys did, and the steveararium looks awesome. for about three hours in the afternoon, the sun shines down through the tree and right onto it, like a spotlight. i'm not sure if that was intentional or not, but it's really cool. thanks again for your help and your sympathy and the emails and everything else. i love you guys.